Tuesday, March 8, 2011

So I was thinking # 2

If you die today, then nobody will remember you in a year’s time.

Not entirely true.

May be your parents will. They’ll miss you the most. They are getting old. You are the one thing that they look forward to. They will miss you. And may be four of your friends. They’ll miss you. Especially on Saturdays, when they get together. Or at night, when they are expecting your phone call. But eventually they’ll get used to having the fourth chair empty. They’ll get used to the phone not ringing at 23.22 hours. And life will move on, as life does. And then probably a year later,when your Birthday alert pops up on Facebook, some people will think of you. May be feel a little sad as well. But then they would get back to watching IPL Season 5 or How I met your mother re-run.

And then, memories will start to fade away. It will become bleaker and bleaker, till you are extinct from their memories.

That thought scares me. Not the idea of being dead. That’s an eventuality. But the realisation that your existence will cease to exist.

If you die today, then nobody will remember you in a year’s time.

This sort of thought hits you on a Tuesday afternoon, while you are sitting in office, working on an ‘important’ presentation. And then your mind wanders. You think about how all our lives have always been full of ‘grades’ and ‘class tests’ and ‘ppts’ and ‘deliverables’ and ‘deadlines’ and ‘interviews’ and ‘salary’ and you get the point. True, when you were studying for that class test in seventh standard, it did feel like, the world would come to an end if you did not pass it. True, when you were working nights to meet the deadline, it did feel like, your client’s business will come to a standstill, if you don’t have the code up and running by 4 in the morning. True, you thought that meeting target of tampons in Patiala was the only thing that ever mattered in the entire history of the universe. And then what happened? Then, you died of course. Class tests gone. Sales target gone. Presentations gone. Promotions gone. Gone. Gone. Gone. Zilch. Nada. Zero. Nobody will mention that you scored the highest marks in the history test in seventh standard, or achieved record sales of tampons in Patiala in February 2011.



If you die today, then nobody will remember you in a year’s time.

This thought could have been the beginning sequence of a movie. A movie about a regular guy, who reaches that stage when people get annoyed beyond endurance and start something and go on to make history. It could have been the moment, when you discover the Tyler Durden in you. When you realise how badly we are stuck in this unending quagmire called mediocrity. It could have been the point where you start to think about your ‘project mayhem’. Think of how you can leave that ‘dent’. Small but unmistakable. A dent which will be your own.

It could have been one of those moments.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

The unending quagmire of mediocrity. Remember these words. These words will define the story you will tell. And, a story you will tell.

Thoughts, yes. Different they are from answers. Answers they become for others. At least gets them thinking.

Over conversations, sleep and general gadabout, thoughts are the only real connecting thread.

So you were thinking?

Nefertiti said...

It's a depressing post, and I don't like you thinking. But ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, the important thing is you have broken your 3-a-year jinx!!! Now that's quite an unmistakable dent. Congrats on your 4th post!

Anonymous said...

In order to make myself recognized by the Other, I must risk my own life. To risk one's own life, in fact, is to reveal oneself as not bound to the objective form or to any determined existence - as not bound to life.
Yes,I am responsible for the essence of my existence.

Then is it me, or is it the Other or is it just those anonymous thoughts that hold it.

prachetash said...

@ Anon1: If I had to remember one line, then that would be 'A story you will tell'.
Thoughts are like sparks. Hopefully, there will be one spark good enough to invent the fire. :)
Yes, I am thinking. Aren't you?

prachetash said...

@ Nefertiti: Read the last paragraph one more time. It's not a depressing post... quite on the contrary. But yes, I have been more cheerful than this before.

And yes, 4th post! Looks like the jinx has finally been broken. High 4 to that I say. Or should we wait for one more to do the high 5? :)

prachetash said...

@ Anon2: The existence of self is not in the physical manifestation of it. It is the thought, which controls the essence. But anonymous thoughts don't lead us anywhere. Not for long.

Also, Jean Paul Sartre scares this humble creature! Why not hear your own words? :)

Kappu said...
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Kappu said...

Superb! It struck a chord in me... cos that is what my life is all about... grades, deadlines and salary ... *sighs* creepy post though! :D I can't bring myself to say that line - the one you wanted to be an opening dialogue!!

Unknown said...

maybe we all just wanna leave something beautiful...

Unknown said...

Thought provoking